From His hands to mine
Back to his I gave you
It hurts so bad inside
Because I did not want to
I don’t know why you had to go
Oh so bad I wanted you to stay
But God saw fit
And with that he took you away
Such a beautiful, beautiful face
I have implanted in my heart
I have to move on now
If I only knew where to start
My Guardian Angel now
I know you will be watching me
I hope to make you proud
Because I know one day together again we’ll be.
If I knew you were leaving
Before your time was due
I wouldn’t have rushed my pregnancy
But cherished every minute with you.
I’ve been through hard times
Times I didn’t know if I could make it through
But no pain I have had is greater
Then the pain of losing you.
My heartbreaks every time I see
Your pretty little face
My hopes and dreams shattered
The ones we would make
The day the doctors told me
Told me you were gone
It couldn’t be right
Something had to be wrong.
I knew you wouldn’t leave me
Only against your will
I didn’t know what was happening
It can’t be real.
Mommy I’m an angel now
Watching over you.
Jesus called me home with him
There was nothing I could do
It breaks my heart to watch you cry
Cry for me each day
If Jesus hadn’t of needed me
With you I had loved to stay
Because I know you would love me
With all your heart and soul
Each day that would pass by
Your love would continue to grow
But Mommy just because I’m in Heaven
Doesn’t mean I’m not with you everyday
I am with you when you cry
And I hear every word you say.
For in your heart is where I’ll be
Until your time is through
Cause when you’re called home to Heaven
I’ll be waiting at the gates for you.
I don’t know how to deal
Oh I wish I could hide
My mind is so confused
My hearts screaming inside
Is there ever any joy
Oh I wish it would come
Oh my joy was here
But you had to go straight home
Why can’t you stay a little longer
At least another day
If I could call our Father
I’d beg him to let you stay
But the phone we use
Is only a one-way line
We speak to Him in words
He speaks to us only to our mind.
I don’t know why you had to go
I guess I never will
But think He knew the day He took you away
It was my heart He would kill.
The day the angels came to get you
And take you home
Yes you went to Heaven
But not alone
See part of Mommy went with you
On that dreadful day
Mommy didn’t want you to go
Be He just couldn’t let you stay
He needed a beautiful angel
To dwell with Him above
And Mommy sends her angel
All her heart and all her love
See Mommy knows one day
She will spend eternity with you
But Jesus will take care of you
Until my time on earth is through.
I closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked him to heal my wounds
And wipe my tears away
See I don’t know how to handle this
Not alone
If He would let me
I’d walk straight up there and bring you home
A better place
I know that’s where you are
But I could have made your time
On Earth worthwhile, by far
The most perfect love
I would have given you
But too Beautiful for Earth you were
So I never got the chance to.
What a beautiful daughter
I know you would have been
But until I get home
You’ll be with me in my heart, till then
The sound of an Angel
Her wings flying around me
The sound of her winds, I can hear
But it’s her face I cannot see
She is an Angel in heaven
With God most high
She became an Angel
Before my hello or my goodbye
The tiny little Angel
Born too silent, too still
But I have to turn my heart to heaven
And know it must have been God’s will
To take her away from
All the love that I had
Knowing she has gone before me
Should make me happy, not sad
So I am asking you Lord
To carry me through these hard times
Until I walk through your Golden Gates
And once again my daughter can be mine.
Written by: Cassie Davis
Date: August 27, 2003
Tia Ann’s Poem
